science & faith

it was a bright day and i was looking forward to see miss amira. she was the one who

always makes me smile even when shedidn't try. she was also the reason why i getback up

when i fall. today will be the day to be remembered as it will be the first time we met.

i was staring outside the window thinking what i must wear to meet this special person.

finally, i get out from my house wearing a casual attire. i walked alone towards the place that had

been set which was at the kuala lumpur butterfly village. as i reached the place, i sat on a bench

which is made from wood. from far away, i saw a girl wearing a red sparkling dress was waving

her hands towards me. and my expectation was the girl must be the one that i've been waiting for.

my guess was correct as amira approached me by saying "hi". we decided to spend our day

by visiting the butterfly farm. we had a great time together and my feelings toward her became real.

then we walked together and bought some food for us to eat. amira managed to buy a sandwich

because there were so many people at the stall. so we shared the food together under a tree. i also

managed to sing her favourite song as her request. the song was entitled "according to you". as time

goes by, i had a great time walking with her. i want to tell her that i want her to be mine but i don't

know how to tell her.

today is graduation day , it has been a long time since i knew the girl named amira. both of us

will get our results for the examination. luckily, both of us pass the test with flying colours. she met me

and hugged me. my heart beats faster than ever. then she kissed my forehead and told me she was

proud to have a friend like me. did she feel the same way as i do towards her ? my mind started to have

this question. i wanted to tell her that i want her to be mine but i dont know how to tell her.

now, she was going to marry another man in her life. time goes by, and we are now 26 years old.

the wedding was already been prepared by her family. my heart broke as she was officially married

woman. i braved myself to see her husband. she seemed suprised a she hugged me but this time she burst

into tears. she told her husband that i am the bestfriend in her life. i wanted to tell her that i want her to be
mine but she is now a married woman.

on 26 october 2003, i recieved a call from amira's parent saying that she met with an accident

and quickly i rushed to the nearby hospital. i drove my car as fast as i could to see her and i want be by

her side. we waited for so long at the hospital. as the doctor came ouut from the operation room,

we asked the doctor how was amira's condition. the doctor said she was no longer alive, they tried their

best. but allah love her more than we do. my heart felt like it will explode. i kept quite and keep calm.

suddenly, her mother gave me her diary. her mother said that amira wanted me to have her diary. it was all
about me and her. there are lots of pictures of us together when we were little till now.. at the back of the
diary she wrote this,

"i want to tell him that i want him to be mine but i dont know how to tell him"

i burst into tears.

THE END